Being a singaporean is tough, a singaporean male is tougher. (No doubt there are nations where, just being a citizen is punishing enough).
To strive for excellence but to give up social life and attention for your loved ones, or to be glad with what you have currently and spend the rest of your life like any other person? I'm going through a hard time, trying to get a degree, serving my nation (NSmen overseas training), working full time in a very harsh environment, appease my parents to make them not worry about me, to cherish the love of my life that i found recently.
I do not know how long i can last before i burn out, i really hope that i do not end up becoming like the sort of people that i've been bitching about.
2 years of my prime-time was spent on protecting my nation, i had to delay my degree programme and i have 2 years lesser working experience than my female peers... not to mention the major influx of Foreign Talents are making my sector very competitive. To start planning for family seems so faraway with my current remuneration, housing price are sky-high and COE (a certificate which you must buy if you want to own a car in Singapore)... looking at friends that come from wealthy family makes me feel so inferior and helpless.
This is one of the rare posts whereby it's got nothing to do with technical stuff, sorry if you are a fellow singaporean male and feel the same (if you don't already feel the same :)), for non singaporeans or maybe females that reads my blog. Be glad if you are not in the same situation as many of us, this is rarely a place for me to rant. But all these emotions have to go somewhere and this place seem to be a decent one.
Keep trying. You are smart which is 70% of success.
ReplyDeleteThanks buddy, graduation is round the corner
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